Right where you are sitting

My room is in a corner of the dorm. It’s a quiet place and the whole lobby in the side of my room has only 4 rooms and one bathroom. Right, in my room, I’m trying to find some details that I never paying any attention before.

Actually, the first thing that catches my eyes is just the desk. The desk is a big thing that it’s too common in my room and I wouldn’t use my precious time to look at it. However, I see that there is a big gap between the main part of the desk and the bookshelf today. I usually think the desk and the shelf are one whole thing but I find I have had some wrong ideas for a long time. Then, I think I’m really lucky to notice that they are separate because one side of my shelf is nearly leaves the working range of my desk. So I stand up really fast to adjust it. I’m so glad that I do this work or my shelves would all fell down. I used to think it’s a waste of time to do this kind of observation, but I know if I don’t do that, I would use more time to tidy my shelf then. As a result, I would always find inconspicuous details in my room.

On the other hand, I found there are some small cracks and holes on my desk and it’s not that smooth as what I think it is before. Doesn’t matter the cracks are caused by me, the owners of the desk before or the age of the desk, it’s just broken. Then, I understand that my desk is not that stable as the one in my imagination and I need to be a better owner of it.

Right on my shelf, there is a frame with a picture of my great grand mother who passed away five years ago. I have brought this frame with me to everywhere, just like I have brought my favorite doll to everywhere for 8 years. I’m a person who yearns for the past, and because of the observation, I start to look at this picture again. I’m afraid of any damage of the picture so I clean and move it every week. During the observation, I saw the smile on her face. The background of the picture is even faded because of the fast passing time; I’m afraid if the person in that picture would be faded. This is my last way to remember her, but it’s disappearing gently. I’m a little bit worried and stop my work on finding details about right where I’m sitting.

To conclude, the activity teaches me that I need to be a better owner of all the stuffs I have. I would spend more times on observing some small details that I cannot find out without a careful mind. I cannot take charge of all my stuffs and make them always in a right order if I don’t use my mind to fix them. I wish I would make my room better.